XD one heck of a title right? yeah it happens when your bored at 3 am! XDD

ive drawn a few things, but ive been 'thinking' on pictures before i draw them, and ive been drawing em while im working too! XD!! 1st window in drive thru, theres a surprising amount of waiting on the line to move o.0; and i can draw a ok good shape in a few seconds ^^ which had me surprised, but i hate bragging >.<! i draw em on receipt paper XD

realistic stuff has really been in my mind, which is good because even my fantasy characters like Toxic is becoming more real (mainly on the hair detail) and Z is (as i said) gonna be changed alot around his head. but after im done thinking about it, and actually put it on paper, i feel its gonna look very nice ^^.

small out of no where rant now: dont have to read this

grrr, i. errr. ok! a friend at work, she draws stuff too. well i dont know what she calls drawing, more like looking at something and drawing it. she had a picture, that was what looked to be a woman under a sheet like fabric, that was originally drawn by leonardo devenchi (couldnt spell it) she took a small printer sized paper print, and 'drew' it on a much larger paper. problem is. it sadly looked the EXACT same as the smaller one, as if it was only printed on a bigger page. and i know what kind of gleam graphite or charcoal has, and that looked printed... another thing is, EVERYONE BELIEVED HER! and was RUBBING IT IN MY FACE!! T.T people come ON! not to mention when her parents found out that i was an artist, they made sure to boast about hers. i really wanted to come up to her, and tell her and her parents very politely, draw something without looking at ANYTHING. then talk to me T.T... artists can draw in many forms and be appreciated the same and i acknowledge that. but I find the most quality in art when they don't have to see anything or have a Reference to draw it. the only image that should be used is the one you have in your mind, to me. i know people work differently, and they have their reasons, im not putting anyone out in saying those things.

but when someone of the likes come up and RUBS a stupid (could be) PRINT in your face and tells you that they drew it, how would you feel? what would you say, or like to say? o.o simple. you would get a tad upset. but i let it roll off my shoulders like everything else... but its sad though, they were all about my art until then. now they're all quiet, until they see me making something new!! XD!!!

i think its about time i went for a more realistic appeal for a while, on everything. and i have alot of pics on my plate to try out on >3 i dont have alot to say on other subjects so just thought id let you all know..

also, in order to make these changes on certain characters might render their original design, one is Z. because ive noticed drawing his hair all over his head, has made him more look more 'furry' than a wolf around his head. so i will attempt to pull his appearance on the 'wolf side of the force' XD!!! might even quit with the 'all over the head' hair and might just leave his 'wing' as my brother says.

toxic paws sadly wont look very realistic hardly. its tough to make that much hair realistic: and have two colors like green and blue to tend with. but i will try my best ^^.

i just shouldnt have, it was an explanation. and was taken like something was seriously wrong. not blaming anyone, but it was my fault for typing it like i did. im sorry for the bother, but the "ordeal" was nothing to worry about, i just felt like i wasnt appreciated last night. it was a phase taken seriously.

Im very sorry for that everyone. -.-

this is not a rant, just read.

is everyone just in a slum or what? ive been trying to stay happy, but from what ive heard from alot of my friends, it just isnt what its cracked up to be anymore...

i feel like everyone is getting tired of me trying to help them too... and i feel weak, because im not getting the acknowledgment that i used to.. sure same tactics can get old after a while, but IF they WORKED then THEY CAN WORK AGAIN! deny it all you want. but its the truth. God never gives up!!

this explanation is meant for everyone not one person. bottom line, i have put in Alot of effort to make everyone happy and at peace. but its not a one man dance, YOU have to do your part too. by not thinking of whatever might be putting you down, when ever it comes up and say 'no' in real life, if you have to SCREAM IT and dont be shy. because you are telling that negative force (a demon of torture) that is making you sad, that you WILL NOT believe what it is telling you will happen, and that God will come through with it.

friends in need, ive been in every way possible trying to be nice about this whole ordeal, and its hard to be nice with such situations. and the only way anything that i do can be effective is if both parties are participating. so uh "hint hint"

i cant believe how much stuff i have thats not related to art at all, almost half my gallery it seems. snapshots, photos, games, avi's etc. seeing this made me feel kinda bad about the big 400 deviation hit picture i was planning... o.o i guess i put em in my scrapbook.